Welcome to Fighting Utter Nothingness!
A collection of simple, easy, happy processes of perceptional and existential self-improvement.
My own take on Mindfulness practices.
Brain joy, by choice.
Hello. My name is Mark Gilliland.
For most of my life, I was Fighting my own Utter Nothingness.
I grew up not believing myself relevant, or even existent.
Uncertain of what my Purpose was, I couldn’t seem to get a grip on my Life.
Early on, I discovered that making people laugh helped me feel more relevant.
For a long time I thought that ‘funny’ was my only reason to Be.
For many years I focussed myself through laughter’s lovely, yet limited, lens using cartooning, animation, then later into stand up and sketch comedy.
I unconsciously felt that ‘funny’ was all I was worth.
Inspired by endless Evolutionary Authors, I worked to put aside the ‘funny’ crutches and searched for processes and self perceptions that helped me accept my Relevance. To grow past my internal Utter Nothingness.
Freed from the limitations of only seeking laughter, I was able to seriously start asking why Brains worked the way they did. Specifically, my brain.
I’ve been learning how to build a new perceptional universe around myself, one thought at a time.
Documenting, analyzing and evolving my internal processes. Listening to how I treated myself in the silence of my mind, and guide my bias away from disbelief.
I discovered I felt the most relevant… when I was writing or talking about my internal relevance. I existed the most when I was talking about existentialism.
Pursuing this path, I’ve been slowly growing out of the hole in my head, and into the world.
I love endlessly pondering new solutions to freshly discovered psycho-emotive challenges within me.
Watching for glitches in my matrix, that show the cracks around my perceptions, revealing invisible biases and unnecessary emotional application. Freeing up hard drive space in my mind, so it works quicker.
Finding new ways to look behind blind walls of assumption I’ve constructed between me and simple perceptions.
Lovingly tearing them dow. then sifting through the rubble for answers. Rebuilding.
Fighting Utter Nothingness is an amalgamation of all the processes and interests I’ve gathered to this point.
Using every learned process to aid the reflection of my evolving specificity. Using them as a lens for everything I love.
We must discover and assemble the pieces of our preference into the puzzle we were born to become.
The more I learn of my unconscious self, the more I can grow into my Dream.
The more Me I Am, the more easily I’ll see the evidence of my personal relevance.
This is me reflecting my continuing internal evolution off you to broaden my self perception. This is me fighting utter nothingness.
Please, join me!
Thanks!
Mark