What is my “Self Worth”.
My perception of self-worth lives on a spectrum between how Positively I think of myself
and how Negatively I think of myself.
Between the Brilliant me and the Dumb Ass self.
Between focussing on who I Am – versus pondering who I’m Not.
I’ve devoted a Lot of my life to reviewing my pile of Not.
Thinking about my condemning body of Bad.
Staring into the Abyss of Missed chances.
Lost, visualizing memories of everything I Wasn’t.
Depression is an angle of perceptional obsession.
Living depressed was a habit I picked up young.
It became the lens through which I viewed my world.
An invisible bias wrapped around my brain.
Caught up in it’s own propaganda, my mind became a machine that endlessly produced “Not”.
I was always pointed at odd angles to viewing positive potential.
With effort, I’m turning my biased consciousness towards my worthy.
Perceiving elements of a positive self esteem with similar mechanical consistency.
Spending more time in my Shine. Gathering proof of my potential.
Discovering and investing in my preferential specificity.
Not running away from rays of opportunity – for fear of seeing myself in a better light.
In better light I feel less Lost
The more I can think of myself in terms of Opportunity Available,
the more easily I can become who I Am.
I’ll stop being who I wasn’t.
My journey continues more freely with every “Not” thought caught.
To the point where the Awesome person inside me is always easily apparent.
What I Am – is the joyous evolution of an ever changing potential,
and every visualization of positive self worth buys me a ticket on that ride.